Monday, December 28, 2009;2:49 PM Y
And I'll wait for the only key that fits the lock in my heart...
I had this ability to forsee things
though its a passive skills
And I had totally no idea how it works.
It just a strange feeling this thing will happen,
Or surely is this thing that cause this from happening
etc...
I just prove myself right time and time again,
but why always at my most crucial time it won't work.
And it always don't work when on myself!!!
Everything I forsee on myself does not come right
nor did it happen the way opposite.
It just something new out of what I will expect most of the time.
Sometimes I just hate this ability.
It makes me venture into other secrets unknowingly.
Often I made smart guess,
actually is not even smart at all.
It is just this gift from God.
As from Spiderman,
With great power comes great responsibilities.
Now I say
With great knowledge comes great Evil!
Now because of my ability I bear something heavy.
I thought I can go out of that "square tile" if I make the 1st move
but now I am trap in it even more.
How I wished I am a evil person by natureso I would not suffer so greatlyand my options of doing things can be more wider.
I could just sabo the other person and let the advantage on my side,
but why I just did otherwise and lend him a hand instead.
I know I am foolish
I can't change the way I do things.
That is why I need to learn how not to be saint-like......
I just recieved this yesterday from fb God wants you to know...
that there is no such thing as conditional love.
Love is either unconditional or it's no love.
You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances.
But love accepts no boundaries.
So never say 'I love you because',
for love has no cause,
Isn't this so true?
It come so timely that it give me an insight on a lot of situation.
It trigger my thoughts yet again and give me more area to think.
What if I was... Can I really be so Xiao Sha to let go?
What if I was... Can I really be without guilt and treat nthing has happen?
Am I just too plain naive???
It also helps me to create another understand...
You cant force others to love you.
There is no why,
and it is no use to pressurised.
A forceful relationship is not true love.
For love is unconditional;
Thats when I think rejection is nothing.
Reject me and I will congratulate you,
Really...
Because you will be the 1st to do so verbally.
When you really did,
Lets still be the same or we can even become closer friends.
I won't mind seriously.
Because I know in my heart that if I was rejected,
my heart will just returned to where it belongs.
And know who is the real boss!! RAWR!!!
Though I not saying you must reject me,
But you know already...
A no is better than a don't know.
Do not hestitate if you do not have the feelings.
Do not care about how I will feel.
Because I eat NO for breakfast!!!
Of course it would be perfect if the answer is the opposite.
Even if the future road maybe hard to walk,
we'll find our way through if our hearts is together.
We had 2 minds now too...
And definitely I eat YES for dinner!!! Meow~
No matter what is your answer,
I will wait.
Wait till you're ready to tell me.
I won't push an answer.
Just don't push me to others.
It breaks my heart everytime you do.
If you really happened to passby this blog,
I just want to say I love you...
Love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to...
*Disclaimer: Don't ask me who this person is. Is either you know already or you don't. I had my reason for not saying. Based on my experienced, I don't want anti-fans on this girl.
