Monday, October 13, 2008;11:31 PM Y
And I'll wait for the only key that fits the lock in my heart...
It was quite amusing that my msn could create quite a stir.
Should've keep the not eager to be 18 feeling hidden.
I really don't know why,
Why every place seems to remind of my birthday!
My friendster, blog, msn, hotmail, human, almost anywhere.
Just when I don't feel like celebrating such things happen.
Maybe it's a sign that I should party during my birthday.
Actually, I don't know the exact reason I am not enthusiatic about this year celebration.
I was think maybe because from young I had been pyscho that 18 should go army.
So then, I had derived that 18 is the age of maturity.
It didn't seem that this cause me having such an emptiness.
So I thought it was because I don't know where to go.
It doesn't seem to be the case as well.
Could it be when I became 18 I would miss out a lot of fun.
Missed out those fun acting matured,
To risk getting caught while helping friends buy ciggarette or alcohol.
Or maybe I afraid I would had no self discipline?
Start to drink more alcohol until 1 day I would be drunk,
Start to go clubbing and get no hold of myself.
Never mind I won't get drunk due to my high metabolism rate.
I won't go clubbing often due to my dislike of that atmosphere.
In conclusion, there aint any conclusion because the problem not yet solve...
Even when rejoice or sigh.
I know there is this place I will be,
Because you are in my life...... Jesus Christ!
