I wonder why we kept having the same reaction and same action?

Why is it seems like you are the only that can feel me?

Why are we so fated?

Why do I hate that feeling but yet love it?

It makes me feel so not special, so not unique.

But it also makes me feel like there is someone connected to me.

Its a weird but heart warming feeling.

Yet, in the end we are nothing more but just friends......

与其说99个安慰的话不如做1件关心的事

与其活99没有目标的年不如活1年从满意义的

与其打死99个坏人不如感化1个他们

与其说99次我爱你不如做1件证明的

与其爱错99个不值得的女生不如爱你1个值得的

还有很多很多的不如

活过了我们才知道

How nice it would be if you know who is the right girl for you from the beginning

But that way we wouldn't enjoy the process of falling in love

Neither will we cherish the person as much...

Sometimes is God that want us to meet a few bad ones

So we will know the right one when it comes.

If we never meet failure,

if we never meet the worst,

How will we know success and understand what is good.

That is why I encouraged people to 放胆去爱。

要爱就要爱的轰轰烈烈。

不要在乎天长地久，只在乎成今拥有。

一分一秒都可以胜永久，

这样才能够说真正的爱过。

I haven't had a love story like this.

Though I do have ex even if it was just 1.

We never do much on the 28days relationship.

The most was holding hand.

You may asked is this even considered a relationship?

Yes I still will say even though how I wish it is not.

Because it was acknowledge.

Why so pathetic you may asked?

Because of my shyness to go on any further.

Maybe that is partly the reason why it did not last.

This lesson tells me that there are certain things we could not be shy.

And some how or rather I just eliminate this shyness not long ago.

I did not know how I did it, it just did.

Poof and my shyness is gone.

If you ain't mine when I let go off my hands and you won't return......

Okay a rough idea what are my new year resolution,

Just to keep track of where I want myself to go in case I get lost.

1* WIN World Skills!

2* Eat all the good Korean food in Singapore(our mission)

3* Master how to play the piano

4* Finish at least 3 page of the manuscript book that you gave

5* More chance to perform

6* Do better in my hip hop

7* If cant get a gf by somewhere in April, I'll stay single till after army

8* Maintain my GPA at 3

9* Finish reading the bible

10* Learn how to play the Guitar

11* Get a DSLR

如果我的牺牲能换来大家的快乐，

我很乐意的接受这伤害。

A trip to causeway yesterday led to a series of event.
The weather was good,
So suitable for my mood when I departed from my house.
Light breeze flew passed my sleepy face,
Just as though it was trying to freshen me up with it gentle touch.
There was drizzle,
And the gentleness of the rain drop touched my toned skin.
Like it was comforting me and all my ashes just flew away.

I was late in meeting my friends but I was not the latest.
We was planning to catch a movie there,
However, the time slot was all sold out.
So we waited for everyone and decided to travel to Vivo City!
We was all tired and slept in the bus ride.
Only the poor Kenneth and I had to suffer from Yan Yan disturbance.

When we reached there,
to our horror!
The time slot for our movie left 9.30 and 10.20.
The show at 9.30 only had the front 2 rows and we had to decide once again.
I went to call Adriel and Kenneth to discuss but when Kenneth reached,
Yan Yan had already paid the price for 10.20.

OH NO!

We wouldn't be able to catch the last but or the last train.
As it would end very late.
But when there is a will there is a way.
We are all game enough to TON the night!
Except for the two girls that need to go home.

The movie was great and it really ended very late.
It end at 12.50am.
That embarked our journey to a new adventure,
People that need to go off go off.
And those that were gamed stayed on.
10 people down to 8.
But we were still going strong.

Vivo had nothing REALLY NOTHING at night!
No 24 hours shop!
No food!
No water!
It was just like the desert without the Sun.

We sat near the fountain and chat for a little while.
Until 1 decide that we should find our way to survival.
We need to stop ourselves being trapped in Vivo.
So we moved to the nearest market to find all shops closed.
We asked for direction from vendors there.
Though their shops was closed
but the vendor were preparing food for the next day.

One of them directed us straight.
So onward we go Tanjiong Pagar!

At first,
we were like walking aimlessly through the scary night.
Everything around was trees, roads and sea.
We had no landmark to depend on.
And the moon was hiding behind clouds.
We just knew that we had to move forward.
With doubts in our hearts,
did the auntie directed us to the right way?

While walking we saw police car passed by,
so Jing Mao went to asked them for directions on where to get drinks.
And again they directed us straight ahead.
All we saw was an expressway.
But with faith in our hearts we travelled forward.
We reached a new destination!

Is an old maybe still in used rail way tracked.
We have along the side path of this track.
Eventually, we came to Tanjiong Pagar.
We decide to move further as we were getting more excited.
Because things around start to look more familiar.
And we moved our ways through and reach Cantoment center.
We had our pitstop there and regain our energy with food and drinks.

Most of us was pumped up and our new goal was to the city.
We walked around following big buildings.
It led us to many places.
And some of them was places we went before.
So navigation was easier.

We passed by China Town and reached Clarke Quay.
We ate some breakfast at Mac
Slack around and took pictures around the riverside.
Few of us intend to slack there.
Others were anxious to move on.
We wanted to walk more and planned that our last destination was City hall.
A place where everyone was convenient to go back home.

We departed yet again,
And stopping at every landmarks we saw to take good photos.
We saw the flyers and walked towards it.
Pass by Merlions and the river that was beautified with spheres.
Reminiscencing about a joke that happened recently.
As we past by the scene of the joke and Adriel acted it out.
We had our fair share of laughter
and we ended our journey with 1 last picture.
Not forgetting the brothers’ roar!
Haha

Indeed it was a great journey!
That night passed by too fast.
13hours of Joy seems just like 3hours.
Time do past by quickly when we were having fun.
In the night, walking around also definitely feels refreshing.
Everywhere that was so busy became a ghost town.
Giving you creeps and made you feel like you were playing l4d.
A quiet night also gave me a calm heart to think.
And also when we gathered to walk around,
We get to know individual better.
Our bonds as a clique definitely become stronger.

This night of 出生入死 definitely none of us will forget.
Let this be a wonderful memories and let stayed together as friends.
Forever and more......

While having this outing,
I had my secrets to confess.
The whole day I was thinking only about you.
I do not understand why.
I tried so many ways to shake it off
I tried to focus on the things that I should do.
But you just keep popping up in my head.

It wasn't liked this when I was in Batam,
it wasn't liked this before too.
Not even for all my previous crushed did I felt liked this.
I tried my long sealed NET*,
it did not worked.
Even the improved version did not last.
I need my concentration back.

But luckily,
today I noticed something.
And I had known that the registered emotions in me are not sufficient.
I need to go out further and see the world more.
I need to learn back hatred, I need to know more evil.
Those are things that I thrown away.
Because I was too young and I know I couldn't handle them.
Now I am growing up again.
I need to pick them up.
To counter the immense love I had.

Without hatred, we will not know love.
Love is righteous and delights in truth.
So to balance that emotion I had no choice...
However I am not giving up just yet.
I just need to stop being obsessed in love.
I need to see things clearly again.
I don't want to be clouded by too much emotion.

The call is still yours.
To love or not to love... That is not the question......

I had this ability to forsee things
though its a passive skills
And I had totally no idea how it works.
It just a strange feeling this thing will happen,
Or surely is this thing that cause this from happening
etc...

I just prove myself right time and time again,
but why always at my most crucial time it won't work.
And it always don't work when on myself!!!
Everything I forsee on myself does not come right
nor did it happen the way opposite.
It just something new out of what I will expect most of the time.

Sometimes I just hate this ability.
It makes me venture into other secrets unknowingly.
Often I made smart guess,
actually is not even smart at all.
It is just this gift from God.

As from Spiderman,
With great power comes great responsibilities.
Now I say
With great knowledge comes great Evil!

Now because of my ability I bear something heavy.
I thought I can go out of that "square tile" if I make the 1st move
but now I am trap in it even more.
How I wished I am a evil person by natureso I would not suffer so greatlyand my options of doing things can be more wider.
I could just sabo the other person and let the advantage on my side,
but why I just did otherwise and lend him a hand instead.

I know I am foolish
I can't change the way I do things.
That is why I need to learn how not to be saint-like......

I just recieved this yesterday from fb God wants you to know...
that there is no such thing as conditional love.
Love is either unconditional or it's no love.
You might like someone conditional on their personality or behavior or circumstances.
But love accepts no boundaries.
So never say 'I love you because',
for love has no cause,

love comes from God.

Isn't this so true?

It come so timely that it give me an insight on a lot of situation.

It trigger my thoughts yet again and give me more area to think.

What if I was... Can I really be so Xiao Sha to let go?

What if I was... Can I really be without guilt and treat nthing has happen?

Am I just too plain naive???

You cant force others to love you.

There is no why,

and it is no use to pressurised.

A forceful relationship is not true love.

For love is unconditional;

love has no cause...

Thats when I think rejection is nothing.

Reject me and I will congratulate you,

Really...

Because you will be the 1st to do so verbally.

When you really did,

Lets still be the same or we can even become closer friends.

I won't mind seriously.

Because I know in my heart that if I was rejected,

my heart will just returned to where it belongs.

And know who is the real boss!! RAWR!!!

But you know already...

A no is better than a don't know.

Do not hestitate if you do not have the feelings.

Do not care about how I will feel.

Because I eat NO for breakfast!!!

Of course it would be perfect if the answer is the opposite.

Even if the future road maybe hard to walk,

we'll find our way through if our hearts is together.

We had 2 minds now too...

And definitely I eat YES for dinner!!! Meow~

I will wait.

Wait till you're ready to tell me.

I won't push an answer.

Just don't push me to others.

It breaks my heart everytime you do.

If you really happened to passby this blog,

I just want to say I love you...